Letters to old friends

We said we'd be each other's best men. I drove past your wedding venue last month. I wasn't invited, and I understand why. I'm still sorry.

I think about our drives a lot. The ones with no destination. I don't have a friend like that anymore. I didn't know how rare it was.

I unfollowed you because it hurt to watch your life go on without me in it. That was my fault, not yours. I miss you every single day.

You moved away in fourth grade and I never had another best friend like you. Wherever you are, you were the best one.

I was jealous of you and I let it ruin us. You did nothing wrong. You were just brighter and I couldn't stand next to it. I'm sorry.

We grew apart and nobody did anything wrong and that's the part nobody warns you about.

I should've shown up when your dad died. I didn't know what to say so I said nothing. Silence was the worst thing I could've given you.

You called me your brother for ten years. One argument and it was gone. I'd trade being right to have you back.

Camp, 2009. We swore we'd never lose touch. I don't even know your last name now. But I remember your laugh perfectly.

We were going to start a band. You've got a real job now and so do I. Sometimes I still hear the song we never finished.

You were the only one who texted on my worst day. You probably don't even remember. It kept me here. Thank you for staying close enough to notice.

We were inseparable until a girl came between us. She's long gone. The friendship should've outlasted her. That one's on both of us.

We promised we'd grow old on the same street. You're three time zones away living a whole life I only see in pictures. I'm proud and I'm aching.

You moved on to cooler friends in high school and I never told you it broke my heart. Hope the cool kids were worth it. I'd have stayed forever.